Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Doll House



Meera could not see what lay before her. Needles of sunlight constricted her pupils to a dot. She felt like a misguided ant trapped in a brightly-lit room with unblemished walls of glass. She raised her little palm and squinted for some clarity. The blinding haze gradually cleared up to make way for tiny sunflowers; millions of them, swaying in the breeze, singing a silent chorus. Meera couldn’t believe her eyes. She pinched herself but felt nothing. She looked around. The ocean of yellow wreaths seemed endless. They looked at her with their brown faces and invisible eyes, and then turned to each other, talking in whispers and waving their leafy limbs animatedly. Meera felt a wave of cool air wafting through her hair, combing through the tangles hiding underneath the surface. She suddenly felt free. She lifted her arms, closed her eyes, and ran with the wind; no direction, no destination. In that moment, she was a bird; a bird in a field of sunflowers.

“Wake up Meera! The guests will be here soon.”

A voice called out to her from somewhere. Meera opened her eyes. She was not a bird. There were no sunflowers, only painted fluorescent stars hanging from her ceiling. It was infact a dream. Meera let out a muffled sigh of disappointment. She stretched her arms to shake away the sleep and walked up to the doll house for her morning ritual. It was time for her dolls to have tea. And what a lucky set of dolls they were! Meera took care of them like their own children. She braided their hair and put matching ribbons on them. She dipped their clothes in glasses of water and laid them on her desk to dry, after which she pressed them under her pillow and stacked them into neat little piles. She played doctor to them when they were sick. She scolded them for running down the stairs too fast. She switched the wooden fireplace on during winters. She tucked them under patched scarves and kissed them goodnight. She loved them like they were her own. To her they were real.

Meera set the plastic table out and propped her dolls around it. She laid out the cups and poured into them from the tiny red kettle. She sipped on some imaginary tea and pretended to like it. She asked her dolls if they wanted cookies. They sat their silent. She asked them about school and told them to be good.

“Meera?! Are you ready yet?”

Meera looked around startled. She knew the guests would be there soon. It was her eighth birthday and she had to be pretty for them. She told her dolls to be quiet while she was away. She felt guilty to be leaving them alone. She promised to get them presents this time.

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Meera walked out of the shower smelling like jasmine. She hopped on the rug a few times to dry her little feet and stepped into her room. She noticed a cardboard box lying on her bed. It had a large silver bow on it. It was her first present of the day. She read the note glued on it.

For my darling Meera. Love Dad.

The words were the same every year. It was the familiar lazy handwriting that she had grown to look forward to. Meera ripped the printed wrap in all her excitement and opened the box. She saw a dress nestled neatly amidst the folds of parchment paper. It was the most beautiful dress she had ever seen. It was white with lacy patterns running along the collars and the cuffs. The waistband was a precious shade of blue. There were miniature roses embroidered along the edges. Meera couldn’t wait to put it on. She slipped it over her head and the fabric felt like feathers on her skin. She posed in front of the mirror and stared at her glowing reflection longingly, turning on one side and then the other. She knew she was beautiful. She heard the guests downstairs, streaming in slowly. She held the edges of her frock and spun around quickly one last time. The lingering frills danced all around her.
                                                                     
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The living room was brimming with guests. Meera looked around to see if there were any kids her age. She couldn’t find any. She pushed through the throng of gossiping adults, trying to garner their attention. They seemed all too busy with nothing. What could be more important than her? It was her birthday. She suddenly heard a familiar tune on the piano. The room fell silent. She made her way to the front of the crowd  and saw her thirteen year old brother Pavan sitting on the stool, his fingers running deftly across the octaves. ‘Rustle of Spring’ by Sinding. The string of hypnotic notes echoed across the room, while the guests stood still, gaping at him in awe. Meera inched towards him hoping that someone would take notice of her. No one did. As if sensing her intention, Pavan stopped playing right that instant. The trance was broken. The room woke up to resounding applause. Someone noticed her standing in the corner and wished her. But it didn’t matter.

“Happy Birthday Meera! You're such a doll.”

Meera slipped out unnoticed, pushing her way through the cloud of oblivion. “He’s a genius.” “He plays like a professional”. “And he’s only thirteen”. She ran up the staircase and slammed her door shut. You're such a doll. She’d never felt more humiliated. She walked up to the doll house, grabbed the nearest doll, and tore  her plastic head apart. A tear rolled out the corner of her eye.

The rest sat their smiling. 

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